28 November 2010

once upon a time in 2007

saya ingat lagi, waktu ni saya baru je beli laptop. apa yang best pasal laptop ni ialah,.. jeng..jeng..jeng laptop ni ada camera. so apa yang kami buat pada malam itu adalah sekadar suka2 je nak rakam aksi sendiri. waktu tu kira prak lah jugak. malam tu kami (saya dan dino) sempatlah merakam 3 buah lagu hahaha. ini adalah salah satau daripadanya. bila saya tengok balik lepas itu, saya terfikir... not bad juga muka aku dalam ni, jadi selepas itulah baru timbul impian untuk suatu hari nanti saya btul-betul di kaca tv. itulah dia,.... those-those day :)

apa komen anda selepas menonton clip ini?

26 November 2010

This is for the broken hearted.

I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

kekasih gelapku :(

Life is for having fun. Don't be stupid and waste it on some guy/girl who is gonna act like he/she hates you tomorrow. Never waste it on some one who doesn't want their friends to know they're in love with you. Don't give that person the rest of you tears or a month or a year of your life when he/she treats you badly and doesn't mind to make you cry. Every person deserves some one who wants to brag about them. Every person deserves some one who makes them smile and laugh at their worst moments. We all deserve at least that.

22 November 2010

How To Know You're In Love

If you think you might be in love, read this article to check if it's the Real Thing. Use it to determine if you really are in love, and how long this feeling will last.
1.     Step 1: Early Symptoms
In the first flush of love, you will want to know everything about your partner.
Who he is,
What she thinks,
What makes him laugh.
You feel bad when she feels bad. You want to cheer her up because you can't help it, not because you feel you ought to.
You can't remember what you ever saw in your ex, and even being near them feels like a betrayal of your new love.
And you don't notice beautiful girls throwing themselves at you.
2.     Step 2: Hazards
If you're in love, the physical safety of you and those around you may be at risk.
Watch out for hazards such as:
An inability to perform even the simplest of tasks.
Not being to able to concentrate on any job you've been given.
And not noticing anything or anyone around you.

When you're apart, you may find that you can't stop thinking about her, as soon as you wake up and before you go to bed. She pops into your head for no reason, and you keep wondering what she's up to.
And, just occasionally, you let your imagination run away with you.
3.     Step 3: Movie Love
It feels like you're in a movie. But this movie has a romantic beginning, middle and end. There is no iceberg. It's going to be happily ever after, forever and ever. It's happening to you, and it's REAL.
So don't worry, there's no danger of a camera crew stopping the action and interfering just at the wrong moment.
4.     Step 4: Ignoring the negatives
No one's perfect, and you know this about your new love. But you find those quirks of his charming. You're willing to put up with her boring family.
You love spending time with her, regardless of what you're doing. And you don't mind compromising or missing other nights out.
5.     Step 5: Will it last?
It's looking good so far… but will those feelings fade with time? It may be impossible to predict the future, but you can ask yourself a few key questions:
Can you be yourself with her?
Does he still love you when you're at your worst?
Does she make you feel good about yourself?
Do you find that you don't need to test his loyalty?
Would you feel the same if she got fat?
Or he was destitute?
If most of the answers are yes, it sounds like love.

20 November 2010

What do you do if it's not yet too late?

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people.
Ones with whom you shared something special,
ones who will always mean something.

There's the one you first kissed,
the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to,
the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with,
and the one that got away..

Who is the one that got away?
I guess it's that person with whom everything was great,
everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong.

There was no fault in the person,
there was no flaw in the chemistry,
but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone,
finding a longtime partner that is,
does not lie merely in the other person.

I can actually argue that an equal part,
or maybe even the greater part,
has to do with the matter of timing.

It has to do with you being ready to settle down and
commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little
niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it?
When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner,
it doesn't matter whom you're with,
it just doesn't work.

Small problems become big;
inconsequentials become dealbreakers
simply because you're not ready and it shows.

It's not that you and the person you're with are no good;
it's just that it's not yet right,
and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready.
You really are.
And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down
with someone.

He or she may not be the most perfect,
they might not be the brightest stars of romance to
ever have burned in your life,
but it'll work because you're ready.

It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work.
And it will make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things,
and you find yourself to be a different person.

Things are different, your approach is different,
you finally understand who you are and what you want,
and you've become ready because the time has truly

And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come.
Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship,
you could be married with three kids,
it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason,
the one that got away, is the person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder,
"What if they were here today?"
You'll wonder,
"What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"

That's what the one that got away is.

The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.
 If you're married,
you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that
got away, got away.

Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your
marriage is,
this can happen to the best of us.

 But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that
you're already with the one you're with
and this is just another test of your commitment,
one which will just strengthen your marriage when you
get past it.

 Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright.
It's never nice to live with a "might have been,"but it happens.

 Maybe the one that got away is the one who is already married.
In which case it's the same thing.

You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person
will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips
in the future,
when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.
What do you do if it's not yet too late?

Find him, find her.

Because the very existence of a "one that got away"
means that you'll always wonder,
what if you got that one?
Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie,
it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from nowhere.

You'd be surprised,
you just might be the "one that got away" as well for
the person who is your "the one that got away".

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it wont make
a difference.

If the timing is finally right,
it will all just fall into place somehow and you know.

I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end,to be able to say to someone,
"Hey you! You're the one that almost got away".

"it is only with the heart one can see rightly.
What is essential is invisible to the eye."


LOVE when your eyes meet across a crowded room
LUST when your tongues meet across a crowded room
MARRIAGE when your belt won't meet around your waist, and you don't care

LOVE when intercourse is called making love
LUST all other times
MARRIAGE what's intercourse?

LOVE when you argue over how many children to have
LUST When you argue over who gets the wet spot
MARRIAGE when you argue over money

LOVE when you share everything you own
LUST when you think twice about giving your partner bus money
MARRIAGE when the bank owns everything

LOVE when it doesn't matter if you don't climax
LUST when the relationship is over if you don't climax
MARRIAGE what's a climax?

LOVE when you phone each other just to say "Hi"
LUST when you phone each other just to organize sex
MARRIAGE when you phone each other to find out what time your son's game starts

LOVE when you write poems about your partner
LUST when all you write is your phone number
MARRIAGE when all you write are check's

LOVE when you show concern for your partners' feelings
LUST when you couldn't give a rip
MARRIAGE when your only concern is what's on TV

LOVE when your farewell is "I love you darling"
LUST when your farewell is "So, same time next week?"
MARRIAGE when your farewell is silent

LOVE when you are proud to be seen in public with your partner
LUST when you only ever see each other in the bedroom
MARRIAGE when you never see each other awake

LOVE when your heart flutters every time you see them
LUST when your groin twitches every time you see them
MARRIAGE when your wallet empties every time you see them

LOVE when nobody else matters
LUST when nobody else knows
MARRIAGE when everybody else matters and you don't care who knows

LOVE when all the songs on the radio describe exactly how you feel
LUST when it's just the same mushy old crap
MARRIAGE when you never listen to music

LOVE when breaking up is something you try not to think about
LUST when staying together is something you try not to think about
MARRIAGE when just getting through today is your only thought

LOVE when you're interested in everything your partner does
LUST when you're only interested in one thing
MARRIAGE when you're not interested in what your partner does and the one thing you're interested in is your golf score


19 November 2010

Philosophy: Falling in Love

When it comes to love, you need not fall but rather surrender, surrender to the idea that you must love yourself before you can love another. You must absolutely trust yourself before you can absolutely trust another and most importantly you must accept your flaws before you can accept the flaws of another.

18 November 2010

if you

"if your going to love me, love me deeply. if your going to break my heart, break it all. if your going to care, care for me completely. if you decide not to hold me, don’t let me fall. if your going to stay, then stay forever. if you want to leave, do it today. if your going to change, change for the better. and if your going to talk, mean what you say."

17 November 2010

i want nobody but you versi Tophost 2010 hahaha

saya menemuramah Dato siti :) suatu ketika dahulu

pernah bagi ni kat seseorang suatu ketika dulu :(

My Dear Sweet .............,

I miss you.  I want to be with you and hold you.  I want to gently touch your face and cup your cheek in my hand as I look into your beautiful eyes.  I want to snuggle and cuddle with you, to just be close to you.  I want to rub your leg and stare across the bed as we talk of our feelings for one another.  I want to hold your hand across the table at the kedai mamak.  I want others in the kedai mamak to be jealous of our intimacy and our tender affection for one another.  I want to lie next to you while I rub your back.  I want to romance you.  I want you to know how beautiful you are in my eyes.  I want you to know how much I cherish and adore you.  I want to give my heart to you.  I want your heart, I want it all.

With fond affection and longing thoughts,


16 November 2010

You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you.

But i will always love you...

As i sit here and wonder why things arent the same, between us. I realize that he have changed, just like everyone has. We use to be so close but now we barely say one word to each other. Last year we talked on the phone for hours this year you dont even answer your phone. You use to hold me close and wouldnt let me go when i had to leave, now you wont even hug me right. You use to come up behind me and hold me by my waist and say "i love you", now you barely even hold my hand. Tell me what i have done wrong, what made you go away, what i did to make you leave me standing there in the cold. Cant we just go back to how it was me and you. You promised me you would love me forever i guess your forever wasnt as long as i thought... Maybe you dont love me anymore, but you just say that so we wont have to talk about this whenever i ask or when were alone... You still walk me home but this time its in dead silence no goodbye kiss, just keep walking. Please just tell me what i did wrong so we can go back to were you love me. Well i guess you lost the feelings you have for me... But i will always love you...

14 November 2010

Love Language


*A BROKEN HEART is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you are afraid of the reality that awaits you.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you think about the individual that broke your heart constantly. You reminisce the "Good Times" almost as if the "Bad Times" never existed.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night & yet crying more & more each morning.

*A BROKEN HEART is the unforgettable smell of his shirt that sits in that empty box; stowed away.

*A BROKEN HEART is the cold shattering feeling you receive when you hear the syllables of his name.

*A BROKEN HEART is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, & then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears.

*A BROKEN HEART is re-reading his ancient letters & putting away the jewelry that he once bought for you.

*A BROKEN HEART is secretly wanting to run back to him & secretly wanting to just be loved by him again.

*A BROKEN HEART is asking desperately for just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness.

*A BROKEN HEART is pretending to not care what his friends are saying about you.

*A BROKEN HEART is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his number.

*A BROKEN HEART is screaming & begging for a second chance inside.

*A BROKEN HEART is the emptiness & heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love.

*A BROKEN HEART is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright."

*A BROKEN HEART is seeing him, & even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do, you decide to walk away.

*A BROKEN HEART is listening to that one song that makes you break down over & over again.

*A BROKEN HEART sometimes means: not wanting to go on.

13 November 2010

but of course

Of course, you're going to get your heart broken. And it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. That's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. And you'll be a stronger person because of it. Then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

11 November 2010

what is love part 2

Love is when you can't be apart from someone for too
long...you're always thinking of them, and when you're with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It's quite complex. It's a mix of about everything. It's
sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement, it's almost
every feeling you can imagine and more. You know love when you
find it, it's that person that when they smile it brightens
up your day, you can't stop staring at them for fear of losing
them, they're always on your mind, you daydream of being with
them, even if they're less than 20 feet away...and you
can't stand it when they're not with you, the worst feeling you
could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you...you can't tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away...that is love. Nothing less.

"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

08 November 2010

The Rules from MAN

We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules
from the male side. These are our rules! Please note ... these are
all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put
it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us
complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of
it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints
do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes, and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it.
That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect
us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the
ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it
done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say
during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach,
for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have
no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act
like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth
the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an
answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared
to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this; Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the
couch tonight, but did you know men really don't mind that, it's like

Dear Girls (from us guys)...

*Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.

*Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.

*On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

*Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.

*Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."

*Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.

*You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.

*Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.

*Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

*Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

*Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.

**Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-population ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

what is love?

LOVE ISN`t PERFECT It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. & it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on & never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, & impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, Love is realizing that every hour, every minute, & every second was worth it because you did it together.

06 November 2010

my problem

Do you want to know what my problem is? I will tell you what my problem is,
I love your name, I love the way you look at me, I love your gorgeous smile, I love the way you walk, I love your beautiful eyes, I love what you look like when you are asleep, I love the sound of your laugh, to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling. I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. I love how when you touch me I get weak, that is my problem...